Can I Buy A Vowel?

I grew up in a world where my family, my friends and I enjoyed playing games.  Card games and board games drew us together in friendly competitions and good spirited fun.  

Then when we got a television, the magic was really turned up a notch.  We had a whole new selection of games!  My father’s favorite was Wheel of Fortune.  We all eagerly anticipated the revealing of another letter that would bring us one step closer to being able to guess the word.

Sometimes life seems similar to that game.  Fortunately life does not depend upon a random spin of the wheel, but it does appear we are only given a little bit of knowledge at a time.

I used to take great comfort in Psalm 119:106, which says, “Your Word is a Lamp for my feet and a Light on my path.”  But then I realized I wanted more light than just for my feet.  I wanted to see the whole road ahead of me!  When I questioned the Lord, He reminded me of my tendency to run ahead.  He said actually the Light was not so much for me to see my own feet, as it was to see His Feet right ahead of me!

Tonight the Lord gave me another clue concerning the ongoing Mystery of His Glorious Appearance to me on October 12, 1997.  I wrote about that experience in my posting October 13, 2012.  (If you wish to read the more detailed story, you can still find it on this blog site.)

To bring you up to date, this is the shorter version of what happened.

The Trip of A Lifetime

In the fall of 1997, my parents were in an automobile accident.  My mother spent a couple of months in the hospital, never able to return to her earthly home.  My husband and I had planned to go on a cruise to celebrate our twentieth wedding anniversary.  We were going to cancel it.  However, my mother was insistent that we go.  In fact, she was so insistent that she told everyone from family to friends to her doctor that we “had to go on that cruise.”

And so we did.  It was described by some of the seasoned cruise staff as the worst turbulence they had experienced in years of sailing.  As soon as we left port, the ship began to toss and turn and tilt from side to side.  Everyone held on to anything they could find in an effort to regain stability.

Finally, we decided we might fare better if we went up on deck and tried to visually equilibrate with the horizon.  It seemed to work.  As we stared into the heavens, the sea seemed calm.  In fact, it was no different, but our focus was different.

Now that God had our attention, He outdid Himself with artistry.  He painted one of the most beautiful sunsets I had ever seen.  We spent some time on deck, just admiring His work before we went back inside to attempt supper.  My husband took a picture of me with the sun going down behind me.  

Later that evening, we received the call that my mother had passed into Glory earlier.  I was stunned.  At that time, my only comfort was that I knew beyond a shadow of doubt that I was where she wanted me to be.  But I did not know why.

God Began to Give Clues to His Word!

Weeks later, God revealed the first clue.  My nephew had been present at the hospital at the time of my mother’s death.  He had been asked to step out of my mother’s room for the nurses to care for her.  He had done so.  Before the nurses came in, my mother quietly left for Glory.  He was concerned that had he remained, she might have remained.

I assured him that my mother, being the lady she was, would never have left while he was there.  She would have considered it rude!  And besides, I wrote him,  I believed God’s Glory came and filled her room. It was a private, intimate moment, just for God and my mother to share.

I stopped in mid-sentence and thought, “Wow Lord, wouldn’t it have been wonderful to see Your Glory!”  At that moment, I heard Him say in my spirit, “You did.  Your Mother and I arranged it!”

Suddenly I thought of the sunset.  I asked my husband when he had taken that picture.  He replied that it was easy to remember, since it was just before we went inside for supper.  The sunset occurred at the very time of my mother’s death!

I now knew with absolute certainty that I had been sent to that place in time to have a front row seat to His Glory!  But God had more to reveal.

Sometimes God Plants Seeds 

Long Before We Know They Are There!

While I was reflecting on the wonder of the time of the sunset, God brought to mind a memory from the past.  As I was studying the pictures of the sunset … for just a moment, I moved back in time to high school.  In my English class, we received points for every poem we memorized.  Mother loved poetry and eagerly helped me select poems to memorize.

As I remembered, it was as if I was transported back home with my mother.  We were both searching through books of poetry.  I could hear her voice, spoken with enthusiasm.  “Why don’t you memorize this one?  I just love this one.  It’s got such a good message.  It would be a good one to remember always.”

So I memorized Crossing the Bar by Alfred, Lord Tennyson … without knowing that God had planted seeds… and that many years from that moment, those seeds would sprout into a beautiful sunset on a turbulent ocean, within moments of my Mother’s ascension into Glory.

God allowed me to remember that poem with a new understanding.

Sunset and evening star,

and one clear call for me!

And may there be no moaning of the bar,

When I put out to sea.

But such a tide as moving seems asleep,

Too full for sound and foam,

When that which drew from out the boundless deep

Turns again home.

Twilight and evening bell,

And after that the dark!

And may there be no sadness of farewell,

When I embark;

For tho’ from out our bourne (meaning stream or small brook) 

of Time and Place

The flood may bear me far,

I hope to see my Pilot face to face

When I have crossed the bar.

The bar is that point in the water when the currents are stirred up the most by the force of the waters from the sea and the movement from closer the land colliding.  We had indeed been present at the crossing of the bar!

But Wait — God Had More To Reveal!

Fast forward to October, 2012.  God revealed another clue.  As I was thinking back on the remarkable journey God and my mother directed me to take 15 years before, He brought something else to mind … something I had never connected in my memory.

When I was in high school, I wrote a play that was awarded the best play in the South Carolina drama festival.  My mother helped me to polish it for submission.

The title of the play was … Sunset of Remembrance!

God prepares the way for us in advance.  He travels the way with us.  And He allows us to make beautiful memories, which He brings to bloom in just the right season.  The most precious of these memories are perennials, coming up again and again, with new beauty … some even many years later.

The Sunflowers Bloomed Early This Year!

Fast forward to June, 2013.  I was preparing for the visit of my nephews and niece.  I was looking through old photographs and looked again at the picture of Mother’s Sunset.  I had concentrated so much on the sun and the clouds, that I had not really noticed myself.

But now God brought my shirt into focus.  It was one of Mother’s favorites.  It was covered in sunflowers.

Sunflowers are amazing flowers that bloom in the fall.  They have the unique ability to follow the sun from the time they are just buds.  They literally move through the day from east to west and back to the east before dawn each day.

When they are in full bloom, the stem freezes in the eastward position, signifying an eternal dawn!  God reminded me that I was not just a spectator of the sun.  I was actually connected to the sun!

And It Just Keeps Getting Better!

And now for the next “letter” God revealed tonight.  I wanted to repost the story in my mother’s memory.  As I was remembering again in wonder all that had happened through the years, I decided to take a picture of the picture of me with the sunset in the background.  I wanted to post it for my Facebook Friends.

I took the picture with my phone.  I was completely awed when I saw the picture and realized that “somehow” there was a bright light coming from my heart.  Light of the camera …. or Light of the Lord shown through the camera?  

More Seeds Planted Years Ago!

One of my favorite songs is “You’ll Be in My Heart” by Phil Collins.  After seeing the picture tonight with the light coming from my heart, I was drawn to listen to the song again.  As I listened, I saw God smile and I heard Him speak for both Himself and my mother in the closing lyrics.

I’ll be with you.

I’ll be there for you always,

Always and always.

Just look over your shoulder …

Just look over your shoulder,

Just look over your shoulder …

I’ll be there always.

And so as I sign off tonight, I’m looking at a picture of me in a shirt covered with sunflowers … and over my shoulder is the sun, which on first glance appears to be setting.  But, as with the real sun, setting one place means rising in another.  

My Mother lives on in the same place God lives … in my heart!

Sunset or Sunrise?  Ending or Beginning?

One thing I learned from the Wheel of Fortune game was never to guess too soon what the word was.  Another letter or two revealed could change the whole word.

Mother’s Sunset!

And so it is with God’s Words.  Just as He has continued to bring new revelation for 16 years now, I’m sure He is not done yet.  Stay tuned!