I have always loved planning and organizing. I love wading into a mess and seeing how I can transform it into something neat and orderly.
I am a list maker. I try to take what I know and make a five year or more plan that seems reasonable and possible.
I like routines. I like the thought that at a certain time I am going to do something. It gives me a feeling of security, like there really is a future and one where I will be comfortable.
If things don’t turn out as I planned, I always review in detail where I went wrong … what I overlooked … how I can be sure this never happens again.
I think God shakes His Head in sadness as He sees me trying to run His World and in the process, picking up many burdens I don’t need to carry.
I overthink things way too much.
I absorb far too many anxieties that turn into outright fears.
I struggle with information overload as I try to have enough knowledge to have power over my world.
For the past few years, our lives have been full of unplanned things, some disastrous, some exciting and joy filled. It seemed God wanted to teach us a lesson. When we did not get it to begin with, He presented it in another way.
What was that lesson? Quite simply, God is God and I am not.
In some of the most challenging of times, I asked The Lord where we were going. He said, “We are here.”
I thought He did not understand. I restated my case, “If I don’t know where we are going, how can I make a plan to get there?”
He repeated, “We are here.”
“But … but … but … what about the plan?”
He said, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
“But,” I persisted, “When are You going to tell me the plan?”
I thought I heard a great celestial sigh. Then He said, “I did already. Here it is.
You are here.
I am here with you.
I have The Plan.
Follow Me, step by step.
I will tell you everything you need to know when you need to know it.
I take comfort in Paul’s admission that he was still working on some things, but he had not attained them yet.
“Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.
Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus!”
Here is the link to a song about trusting God. I invite you to enjoy and reflect.